Humanity has fractured society, and I am to blame. My benevolent nature and I have had a falling out. This is what happens when the hands of neglect fail to nurture a relationship. Society is not an object I can point to in someone else's yard. I am society, and I have doom scrolled my way into a state of detachment as skepticism, the COVID-19 pandemic, and darkening hearts dampen my desire for connection.My small Kansas hometown raised me to know kindness and care about community, but I wonder if trusting times are now too far beyond my reach. I navigate parent/child role reversal with Mom through it all and search for what is lost. I can feel the answer to my midlife crisis watching me from behind the details of good and bad, hidden within the neglected shrubbery scattered along Memory Lane.Websitewww.tammyhader.com