On February 25th, 1987, Katie Spock was birthed at the home of her parents with an attending midwife, her assistant, and several close women friends. When Katie did not breath and the midwife took no immediate action, Katie's mother, Cindy, took charge and started CPR on her baby, to no avail. With this sudden and unexpected death of her baby, Cindy started on a journey through profound feelings of loss and guilt toward a spiritual awakening and forgiveness. This book reads like a novel and the story is compelling regardless if one has had a significant loss or not. Even though there are intense parts of grief and sadness; beautifully written, the book leaves the reader with a feeling of hope and joy.