Fashion bitch turned wellness witch , Cardsy B, shares her irresistibly witty and raw account of seemingly having, then losing, it all to redirect inward to find healing and purpose in unlocking her intuition. Before becoming Cardsy B, Rebecca Szymczak was a rebellious outcast from rural Pennsylvania , determined to live the quintessential Manhattan life, landing high-level fashion jobs, celebrity friends, and even her own lingerie line along the way. But by age thirty-one, an astrological transit —known as Saturn's Return— gate-crashed her life , stripping away her self-identity and exposing a battle with depression, anxiety, and substance abuse, just beneath the glossy surface. As she began to rebuild her life , Cardsy revisited her childhood hobby of pulling tarot cards. In doing so, she reconnected with her intuition in powerful and often unexpected ways. The Saturn Diaries is the compelling record of that journey , involving everything, from a homemade Oprah-ator phone created to dial the universe to a solo trek through the Costa Rican Jungle to participate in an Ayahuasca ceremony. Part memoir and part spellbook , each chapter features a spell, elixir, or ritual. The Saturn Diaries - intensely moving and often hilarious - chronicles discovery and remembrance. It reveals the magic that occurs when you acknowledge the seeker within and begin listening to your own inner guidance system.