"How is it possible to recover and love the world again when you have lived through the worst? "On the night of September 5, 1990, my two children, Lucie and Sylvain, were murdered by their own father. Faced with such a tragedy, I could have killed myself, but I chose life. Like many mothers, I believed that I could never live without my children. And yet... today, I am no longer ashamed to be alive. Surviving hell is possible. "There is not a word in the dictionary that is good enough to define the nothingness in which I and my family found ourselves." "To fill this gap, I decided to write my story. How can you survive the death of your children? I hope that my testimony will help you, dear reader, to understand the pain of the victims and perhaps one day to overcome it." In this extraordinary story, of rare humanity, Patricia Oddo finds the strength to live for her children, to fall in love, to be a mother again, to speak without taboo about this tragedy that struck her children, and to mourn this tragedy thirty years later.