Gone is the song of our family's happiness. Gone is the kitchen chatter, the laughing cousins, the energy of love. Something horrible came in and swept away the security and life we knew. Tricia Jacobson and her sister Pam grow up in a close-knit family in rural Missouri. But when their parents divorce, the once inseparable sisters take very different paths-Pam, the star student and athlete, begins to spiral into addiction, while Tricia learns to bury her emotions and press forward. What starts as a few bad choices for Pam quickly turns into a devastating battle with drugs, mental illness, and self-destruction. Tricia watches helplessly as her sister loses everything-her future, her safety, and even the ability to care for herself. From the moment Pam is found beaten and left for dead in a ditch to the countless times she relapses, Tricia struggles with the pain of loving someone she cannot save. Through heartbreak and resilience, Tricia builds a life of her own. She earns her law degree, starts her own business, becomes a mother and stepmother, and navigates love and loss. But her story is forever intertwined with Pam's. When Pam becomes pregnant, Tricia helps her make a loving but difficult choice. It's a choice that leads to a chance for a new life, a new beginning-but Pam's struggles are far from over. As Tricia fights for her sister, her strong faith helps her discover her true purpose: to advocate for those society too often forgets. A powerful memoir of sisterhood, substance abuse, and second chances, Praying for Clean is a deeply moving testament to the unbreakable bond of family. Tricia Jacobson is the author of the award-winning YA novel Nova: The Courage to Rise.