A collection of poetry, writings, and photos. This collection is carefully curated from my personal writings of the past several years, a tumultuous time—beginning with secretly receiving a terminal diagnosis at 38 years old—and culminating in a full-on spiritual awakening after the death of my father and several other loved ones in close succession. These lines are the moments, the pain—feelings melting into words. They're everything from lulls of desperate, hopeless depression, to blazing glimmers of merciful hope. A road map through personal grief, heartache, and triumph—I hope there are some who are able to receive my message: that no matter what life throws at you, keep going. Stay in it. You are the only one who can save you, and the only thing you have is now.