I am writing to save my life; it s the only thing that helps, like therapy in a way. I feel like a nurse again with a critical patient, but there is no doc on call, and the patient is me with severe chest pain. The computer desk is my stretcher, coffee is my nitro spray, cigarettes are my O2, and my pen is my IV. No morphine to numb the pain anymore though. My journal is my ECG and rhythm shows ventricular fibrillation. The laptop is my crash cart clear c mon Ben ECG still shows in v-fib clear /\\....../\\....../\\......normal sinus rhythm he s OK...you re OK it s OK. Your family is here Ben, its over now and you re going to be alright I m going to be alright \""34.82 | My Name Is Ben And I'm A Nurse / Addict, Hardcover | Indigo Chapters