Memories of Dystopia is not meant to be a self-pitying rant. It is a short and true account of my life as a sufferer of schizoaffective disorder, and it follows the twenty-eight years it took to get a diagnosis and all the different diagnoses in between as it is one of the most complicated cases many psychiatrists have come across. I have deliberately changed the names of any people in this book to protect their identities, and so as to stop any stigma. It is written in order of importance to me. The definition of dystopia is a place where everything is bad, nothing will get better and there is no hope. Sometimes my heart breaks off with gravity dragging it . I am now on the road to recovery and have included my positive experiences of "getting better in my head." Schizoaffective disorder is a combination of bipolar disorder and schizophrenia, and it is my hope that sufferers of many psychiatric conditions such as bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, Asperger's syndrome, borderline personality disorder, and also members of the medical and psychological profession will find it useful.