As a child growing up, we have no awareness of our family's mental health labels. Having a sister with bi-polar manic depression was my version of normal. When she turned into a totally out of control wild teen, nobody tried to explain it to me as unusual. Now, looking back and reflecting on her life and our relationship, I understand how unique she was. She struggled her whole life with incredible mood swings and substance abuse. She was also smart, funny, creative, and beautiful. Her highs and lows permeated my existence and then, as adults, we grew apart. Finding a collection of her letters has allowed me to piece the puzzle back together. Her letters become a central focus of this story, allowing the reader insight into her state of mind through her early twenties and thirties. For anyone having a family member with mental health challenges, this book is for you.