In this book we get to read parts and fragments from the author's life. Everything from the past to the present, which many thoughts and feelings jump in between. Sometimes a bit confusing but with time becomes clear with reflections. Many years can be seen as missing, unexplained and unsolved but believe that these years will appear later on in other books maby. We read how the love for the children and for life defies many obstacles, this causes her to seek new paths and how she also finds them. This emotional depiction tears us between laughter and tears, as well as soothing words that give us a beautiful faith in the future. She stands honestly, naked and with a sincerity rarely seen in our everyday life. About her own impact and how the responsibility of her own choices brings her closer to a collapse. Sometimes it´s an incredibly heavy story to read and it makes you wonder how and why. Some of the questions we get answers to and some others not Inspiring how a person can free oneself from a self-destructive behavior, created with the participation of the view of men. How she looks down on herself to the grossest level that she loses herself completely.The author tells heartily and vividly, gives us mental pictures from her life and the patterns she previously lived in.