It is not a shiver, it is not a shimmy. It is a full body shaking.  A woman dissociates after childhood abuse and goes on to live a glamorous life far removed from her small hometown in South Africa - and herself. She travels to Cape Town, Phuket, Dubai, Paris, Venice, Cairo and Munich, tying to find her place as a woman in the world. Being a pretty girl, many exciting opportunities open up to her and she moulds herself to fit each role, from film presenter to flight crew, fashion model to fetish dress-up, like a showgirl on a stage. Yet with every move and every smile, she keeps losing more of herself to the greedy hands of men who are drawn to her submissive and alluring beauty. " The more I sleep, the more I can start over when I wake up. Refresh. Rethink. Colour my hair pink. " For Poppie Poggenpoel, life does not go on as usual. She can be anything she wants to be, except herself. Part battered small-town girl, part alluring traveller, her search for the right look has her doing whatever it takes to shake the hollow feeling. From behind layers of doll-eye mascara she transforms herself, only to take on everyone else's ideas of what it means to be enough. Will she find a safe place to be; a dancing, breathing human being-made of the same water and dust as everyone else? BONUS MATERIAL: 11 original illustrations, 5 easy recipes, 1 delicious cocktail idea