This is a testament of the lengths and depths that Jesus has taken to grow me in faith. I have believed in Jesus' ability to save me from a very young age but I lived as a heathen. I have been a hypocrite in my heart because I often judged others. I was living just as badly. Even worse. Jesus held onto me even when I did not see it. I can now. I thought I was too damaged to be able to offer anything for His glory. I was wrong. I know I am not the only person who has seen traumatic events in life that stumble and stunt a person's healthy growth. This is my story of how I have navigated my experiences. You may find my story a little too much to digest. You may find that you don't like me once you know my story. That's ok. I have not liked my own behavior on many occasions. I still mess up. I'm working on me. I hope to offer an insight for anyone else who has doubts about their own character. Let God tell you who you are. He knows you best. His Spirit is still alive and working in sinners today just as He did in the people who wrote the Bible so long ago. Listen because He does still speak to His people. Wait for Him to guide you. He will. Accept His will for your life