In Desperately Seeking Permission , author Erin Moug writes a vulnerably honest first novel. Based on a real life experience, she shares her story of a life that spirals out of control. It begins at the age of twenty-six; an adventurous six-month solo backpacking trip through Australia, New Zealand, and Fiji results in Erin falling head over heels in love with an Australian man. Fast forward four years. Circumstances surrounding the relationship lead Erin to a darkness she has never known. At a deep soul level, she knows the path back to happiness but desperately seeks permission from outside sources, willing to suffer mentally and physically until it is granted. Ultimately, this painful experience serves as her greatest gift, teaching her an invaluable lesson: the only permission you need to be true to yourself comes from you.