James Martin's life has been anything but normal. Starting with falling in love with the girl across the street and ending with a mess of people he thought were his friends. James Martin was the quiet boy, Lavender Springer was new in town. An instant connection rose over them when they were introduced. Growing up is hard enough but when James is nearly killed at fourteen things become harder. With Lavender by his side, James makes it through those awkward teenage years but a new job opening takes Lavender and her family away and a heartbreaking toll on James before he enters college. Now six years later, James the editor of the Rhode Island News paper, is happily engaged to his fiancee Victoria, when Lavender comes to see James hoping the rekindle the years they lost. James still loves her but now he is forced to choose between the woman he is engaged to and the woman of his dreams. Finally when the people James trusts betray him, James' life takes another ride and this time he could be dead for good. In Danielle Deneault's racy first novel she captures the love, affection and pain that comes when you love the one you let go.