It is with immense gratitude for the prompting of the Holy Spirit, and for God's gracious pursuit of sinners, that this memoir was written. I attempt to speak for all who live a hedonistic lifestyle (characterized in this account by drug and alcohol use, sexual indiscretion, health negligence and immoral conduct) and who survive outside of the will of God. For over ten years, it has been the burden of my heart to: reveal the potential anguish of bipolar disorder and other mental illnesses; persuade those who suffer similarly of the necessity for strict medical care and prescription drug adherence; convey to family and friends the need for personal involvement; share the joy and sufficiency of life in Christ, and compare it with the loneliness and void of mere material gain. Furthermore, I wish to stress that it is at any time in our lives - under any circumstances- that we can be spiritually victorious. ROSEMARY QUARTERONI is a freelance writer who lives in Levittown, Pennsylvania with her husband, Rudy, and three cats. She may be contacted at: http: //rosemaryq.deadandmoving.wordpress.com