Cruel WaterI'm not a sadist by choice, I'm a sadist by design, Cursed to inflict pain on othersAnd yet I find no pleasure in it, Only a moment of release from my eternal torment.And yet, it's not enoughI'm not a sadist, I'm a monster.One night changed all that, One night she dragged me from the oceans dark depthsCresting the cruel waters she came to my rescue, like an angel.A mermaid.And now I'm going crazy and don't know what to believe.Was she real? Did she truly soothe my demons and take away my pain?How am I even alive?So many questions taunt me.So many answer evade my grasp.What is true? What is real? What to believe?All I know for sure is I have to find her again, I have to know, Can she really save me from mysel