My experience and journey has been long and tiresome, living out of a suit case from age 22. After my mom passed away, I was set on a journey that took me to over 45 states and three third world countries. My constant companions were trial and error. Everything I touched turned to gold, but always seemed to slip through my hands.  I'm a praying man. When things went well I would stray from my trail and when storms came I would run to God. I abandoned God because I didn't want to lose my friends and people who were close to me. In the end they left me high and dry.