As Long as I Live is not intended to be a self-help book. It depicts my personal struggles and reflections during my journey through the healing process after the death of my husband. The poems I wrote during the early periods of my grief are at times dark and disheartened. As I progressed in my journey the mood of my writings began to lighten and reflect hope. Although, my journey is not yet complete, I find more joy in life now. I reflect on my memories more with a smile than a tear. Now to my surprise I actually laugh out loud and feel heartened by hugs from old and new friends. Every day, I am amazed by the accomplishments of my children and grandchildren. I see the beauty in the world that surrounds me. I feel blessed for the life I have been given. After three long years, in many ways I am content. I cherish my memories and look forward to my future. I know this is how my husband would have wanted it to be.